Letters to my Suns

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Gone away from me


Your gone away from me

I robbed you of your life


I took away your breath

When you were created in love

I didn’t stop to consider the implications of what I was doing to my body, mind or to my spirit

I didn’t slow my thoughts down to even consider how I implicated you

Because of my selfishness I didn’t even give you a fighting chance

My baby
; My first-born

Now your gone and I can never hold or see you in this life

Words can never express how much I hurt
, how horrible I feel

No number of hail Mary’s can take away the pain

I can’t pretend that you weren’t real when I know you were very real

You were a fighter
, strong-willed 
I’m sorry

I love you 
I always will