First time Mom Insomnia Part 1 & 1/2: Confessions of the Sleep Deprived

It’s 4:30 am Saturday morning and I’m awake. Everybody is nestled peacefully. The boys may let out a groan because their pacifiers have fallen out but once I re-insert they are quickly comforted.
Have you ever had those moments when your mind just races; and it may seem for no apparent reason?
You don’t have one clear thought you can truly pin-point that might be keeping you awake. Well that’s me right now. Victim to my own thoughts and fears. Then your man wakes up from the light of your phone looks at you shakes his head and rolls back over. Well good morning honey! Closes phone to try to snuggle.