My son is the youngest identity thief you’ll ever meet. But I’ve taken a stand and reclaimed my womanhood!
When my son was born life became all about him. I stopped working, stopped exercising, stopped caring about almost anything except him. Motherhood made me feel like I had arrived. But after about 2 months it consumed me. While I was grateful to be a mom, and felt like I had been given the highest honor, I also felt like everything that built up to motherhood had vanished. I was always with my son. Even when I was given a “break” I would still eventually end up changing a diaper, feeding, or putting my son to sleep. On top of that, I was in desperate need of some adult interaction and fun. The icing on the cake came one night I got a call about a consulting gig. The company asked for a proposal the next day. I was excited about the opportunity to make money again. But my fiancee was away at work and my son would not go to sleep. I began to feel like I would never be anything more than a mother. I wasn’t working, I don’t cook (my fiancee likes to cook and is good at it so don’t judge), I don’t go out, my life revolved around my son and there was no room for anything else.
I had had enough. The next morning I typed up that proposal and decided that I would make dinner. With my baby glued to me I made my way to the store, picked up what I needed, came home and began cooking. It took about 4-5 hours from start to finish (everything takes longer with a baby) but I did it and I felt accomplished. I shocked everyone but I needed that. I needed to know that I could still do more than watch a baby all day. I needed to know that I could take care of my family and be a business woman. I know and see women do it every day. I needed to know that I could do it too.
I enjoy being a mom. I just have to learn how to bring everything else into balance. I’ll get it one day soon. Being a mommy is just part of my womanhood.
I’m a true believer of the thought that the impossible is possible. Therefore I create vision boards and write notes to place in my God’s Can. I’m constantly writing and quoting my daily I AMs. All of these tools I use to put some of my dreams and positive energy in the universe.
In undergraduate I was a Resident Assistant. We were responsible for attending trainings and doing programs. During my last semester I my Hall Director conducted a training called “God’s Can”. In this training she gave us all a tuflware bowls with God’s Can written on them. She then instructed us to write our prayers, hopes and dreams on a piece of paper and place it into the bowl. After she read the scripture Habakkah 2:2 “Write down the vision and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. For the vision awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.” I complied with her instructions but with hesitation.
Like most “graduating seniors” I was more concerned with graduating than to be consumed with things that were so trivial so I thought. A week before I was scheduled to graduate I was told that I owed the school over 20,000 dollars. Yes, that’s correct $20,000! I was also informed that it had to be paid in full in order for me to graduate. Of course after hearing this news I was devastated. I then realized that I had to explain to my mother why there will be no graduation in my future. I called my mother she was obviously upset. She then asked me what was I going do to about it because she did not have the money. I wanted to snap because I surely didn’t have it. With tears streaming down my face I remembered my God’s Can. I prayed then started writing things down on a pad and placing in in my can. The first being Graduation 2003 more specifically God I need this to happen a week from today. The following Friday my mother called saying she had a check for the amount I needed. Now y’all know I shouted across that stage.
There is power in the pen. If you were to read “The Secret” they would call this the law of attraction. They would tell you that what ever energy you put out in the universe good or bad you will get it in return. I call it the power of the pen.
Write down your vision for your life in great detail. From how you would like you family to operate. To the job or car you want to drive. It is all relevant. If you understand that every vision is God given then you know that it has to come to pass. The key is knowing that it will happen at an appointed time. Don’t rush it enjoy the journey. While you travel though it keep writing. The more you write the more you will see it manifest. The bigger the better. Challenge God with the big stuff and watch him blow your mind.
After all if you can achieve your vision without God then you might not be using his pen.