I Confess: I blame my child for ruining my sexy.
I like heels. I think a pair of heels can dress up even the most basic outfit. I used to wear heels just because I felt like it. I wore heels because I liked to wear heels. Something about them made me feel sexy. And when I got pregnant I thought “ain’t no baby about to take my heels away!”
My soon-to-be mother-in-law took them away. The first time I wore heels around her while pregnant I was just starting to show. She whispered to me “I don’t know if you want me to tell you now or later, but you’re coming out of them heels.” My mouth dropped. But I knew it was coming from a place of love and safety.
From that day on I wore nothing but flats. And here I am 6 months postpartum and still the queen of flat shoes. Part of me feels like I need to relearn how to walk in heels. Part of me is afraid I’ll fall on my butt trying to balance me, my child, his bag, and all the other “accessories” that come along with toting a baby. And that’s not sexy. But I miss my heels. I’ve been trying to get back to them. Taking baby steps; wearing them to special occasions like birthday outings and weddings. I don’t want to have to wait until my son is in school before I can wear heels again. Heels make me feel sexy, and sexy is not back just yet 🙁