Question of the Year

 

“When are you going to have another baby.” The number one question I’ve been asked all year long hands down. To me this question is equivalent to “Can I touch your belly?” You really want to scream “Mind your business and leave me alone”! But you don’t … you smile and politely conjure up some answer that will hopefully make them go away or change the subject.

Don’t get me wrong I want more kids, but really it’s not on my list of things to do within the next year. 3 years ago you couldn’t pay me a million dollars to believe my life would be what it is today, because I had a plan. Technically if God would have went by my guideline I’m not even supposed to be married yet or have a child, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

My daughter just turned two in August, she isn’t 100% out of diapers yet, and sometimes I have to guess at what she really wants. As a mom, wife, daughter, student, sister I’m struggling to really figure out who I am beyond those titles. If none of those titles existed I would have a hard time figuring out who I am and adding another baby to the mix is probably not beneficial to my sanity. I don’t want to be that one crazy family member everyone knows they have!

I want to define myself and my happiness beyond everyone else’s expectations. Plus I’m testing this mommy thing out on my poor daughter. Maybe I can have it down pack by the time we decide to have baby number two because Lord knows I’m winging it!